I've been interested in Buddhism for about a decade, but in a very casual way. Reading books, musing about the philosophy, etc. Now I want to be a little more committed. I have no Sangha nearby that I can take refuge in, so I was hoping to use this forum as a surrogate. Here are some facts about me:
I'm 25, male, and reside in the Golden State. I've been interested in Buddhism every since I read Herman Hesse's Siddhartha as a freshman in high school.
I've been fortunate enough to take introductory classes about Buddhist philosophy and poetry at Stanford University, where I received a B.A. in Psychology.
Despite the above facts, I feel horribly ignorant. Sometimes I think this is good, because it keeps my mind open, but other times it makes me feel directionless and unprepared.
I've studied a few religions/philosophies in the past few years, and Buddhism is the one that resonates most strongly with me. There are a few things I don't like about it, and much, much more that I don't understand. My goal is to ask questions, and hopefully come to like/understand what I do not. And if that is not possibly, then to settle on a personal version of Buddhism that I am comfortable with, one that can give me peace.