I'm a little ashamed I've been lurking around here for more than a year without ever posting. I just saw Paribbajaka's introduction, who's also been looking around for a year before posting, and I thought it was high time I did the same.
My name is Katleen, I'm from Belgium, and my username, Aware, is a Japanese word which could be translated as 'awareness of impermanence' or 'appreciation for the fleeting beauty of things'. Most people will probably read it as the English word 'aware', which makes sense too, of course. I used the same username in the old days at E-Sangha (where I didn't post often either, it's in my character, I guess
) I will try to contribute here every now and then, though I'll never be a real chatterbox.
I've been practising Theravada-buddhism for 8 years now (with 2 brief trips into Zen).
Since 6 years I've been having a very stubborn sleeping disorder which seems to defy all treatment. I used to be a translator; a couple of years ago I got a teaching certificate because I wanted to teach French in high school. But managing classes full of teenagers when you can hardly ever sleep normally is pretty tough. So after a few temporary teaching jobs I'm at home now, unsure what to do next.
There's been a period when I stopped meditating while working long days in serious fatigue, but after that I promised myself I would always keep practising no matter how busy or ill I might become in future
So here I am back at it. I'm really thankful for this place, where I've found lots of good advice, interesting links etc... and the general encouragement of knowing there are so many more people out there making the same sort of effort! It helps keep me motivated
With much metta,
We must cultivate our practice. What this means is that whether you are happy or unhappy you must practice just the same. If you are feeling well you should practice, and if you are feeling sick you should also practice. (...) If things are to go wrong, just let them be with the body, not in mind. - Ajahn Chah, in ‘Food for the Heart’