hi, my name is Justin. over the past year ive sat shikantaza in soto zen traditions, but I am more interested in Theravada and vipassana, which is what ive been practicing lately. I know there are some good teachers, centers, and retreats in my state. unfortunately, those are all in the northern part of new mexico, im as south as you can get. there are zen and Tibetan centers here, so im familiar with sangha stuff. i also watch a lot of videos by yuttadhammo and ajahn brahm. im registering and introducing myself because im sure ill have some questions. ive also checked these boards from time to time over the past year or so.
when i first became interested in Buddhism a few years back (but wasn't practicing, just meditation here and there), it was because i was intrigued. now, and over the past year, its been because ive bottomed out from suffering. beliefs are a form of suffering for myself too, and ive held them all, believe me. im not anti-supernatural stuff, or even an atheist, its just those beliefs have done nothing for me, and only bring me more suffering. that's why i like Theravada approach. and if i get to a point where i meet god in meditation, then i met him/her/it. if i get to a point where i "become one with everything" from my practice, then i will be one with everything. but as for now, those things are only talk and blanket statements to me and do nothing for my liberation.
thank you guys and ill be seeing you around im sure..