Hello everyone. I'm not sure what to actually write. So maybe only few words. I started to interest my self in Buddhism as a teenager. Many, many years ago. I was practising teachings of Buddha my whole life, without even knowing it before I'd read first book about Buddhism. I was practising yoga and meditation as well, unfortunately with many pauses. Now yoga and meditation are a "must" in every day. I'm still reading a lot about Buddha and his teachings. But I would be very happy if I could learn also here with you.
I enjoy doing yoga too... actually, I should start getting ready for my class. It starts in 90 minutes!
If you have asked me of the origination of unease, then I shall explain it to you in accordance with my understanding: Whatever various forms of unease there are in the world, They originate founded in encumbering accumulation. (Pārāyanavagga)
Exalted in mind, just open and clearly aware, the recluse trained in the ways of the sages: One who is such, calmed and ever mindful, He has no sorrows! -- Udana IV, 7
The heart of the path is SO simple. No need for long explanations. Give up clinging to love and hate, just rest with things as they are. That is all I do in my own practice. Do not try to become anything. Do not make yourself into anything. Do not be a meditator. Do not become enlightened. When you sit, let it be. When you walk, let it be. Grasp at nothing. Resist nothing. Of course, there are dozens of meditation techniques to develop samadhi and many kinds of vipassana. But it all comes back to this - just let it all be. Step over here where it is cool, out of the battle. - Ajahn Chah
Aflame with the fire of passion, the fire of aversion, the fire of delusion. Aflame, with birth, aging & death, with sorrows, lamentations, pains, distresses, & despairs ...... Seeing thus, the disciple of the Noble One grows disenchanted. SN 35.28
Welcome Barbara, that is great that you have informally been practicing Buddhism throughout your life and that you are practicing with more conviction now. If you are serious about Buddhism I suggest taking a meditation retreat.
Books and teachers are nice but the only real way to travel down the path is by meditation. Taking a treat allows you to learn the technique properly and more importantly it will engrain the technique into your body and mind, providing the structure and base to progress in your daily life.
Here is an organization that offers meditation retreats:
http://www.dhammawheel.com/chat/ Unfettered at last, a traveling monk, I pass the old Zen barrier. Mine is a traceless stream-and-cloud life, Of these mountains, which shall be my home? Manan (1591-1654)