I'm so glad to have found this place. I only discovered Theravada Buddhism and the Tipitaka a few months ago in my history class. I've always had an interest in Buddhism but was turned off by different aspects of Tibetan and Zen Buddhist books, and visits to the local Shingon temples (I now know these are all Mahayana).
My interest in the Buddha's path to liberation is very urgent. Depression and anxiety plague my life and at various times I've thought freedom could only come from death. Sometimes I have great faith in the Dhamma (or sometimes just awe and joy) but I often give up and return to seeking sensual/intellectual pleasure and self destruction.
I'm about halfway through Bikkhu Bodhi's book "In The Buddha's Words", and it is inspiring but frustrating too. Sometimes I get the feeling like I am watching an expert athlete but am at a stage myself where I still trip over my own feet. It just seems like a long and difficult road ahead to rid myself of years of wrong thinking, habits, and passions.
Anyway sorry for digressing into my whole life story. Hello to you all.



