I'm not sure if this subject has been discussed before. If so, pls point me to that tread.
Well, my problem is, I've been going to retreats and stuff with this teacher for more than 4 years now. I've never actually considered them to be THE teacher, as there has always been a subtle barrier because of our traditions (I'm theravada and they are not). But I've learned a lot from this teacher, specially about meditation.
But in the last retreat, things that seemed to be minor previously, didn't seem so minor after all. For example, if someone has been a monastic for decades and has practiced intensely, you would expect their ego to have subsided a bit right? And someone who's teaching the Buddha's path could be expected to practice right speech most of the time. What if your teacher, the person who is teaching you how to tread the path to enlightenment, does not seem to follow it themselves?
I know I see these faults because of my own defilements. And I know it's pretty difficult to find a teacher whose basically an arahant. But I have sort of lost respect and was pretty disillusioned.
What is your advice regarding this? To consider the teacher to be human, and take only what's good (as my friend suggests)? Or just consider the Dhamma to be your teacher as the Buddha suggested? I've actually been doing the latter anyway, but it does help to have an actual teacher around.
Anyway, hope I can get everyone's opinion on this.. Thanks...