Separation from whom you love is Dhukka, and now that your conditions has fruited into a love attachment you are forced to let it play out. Just be aware of what your mind choose to do, and learn. Cause there will be choices to be made related to your love commitment.
Thats all I can say about this now. Cause I also struggle with fruits from such love conditions. I only hope, to one day be free from this inversion we call 'inlove'.