As most of you who know me well on this site, I'm Autistic and I suffer from anxiety & depression and I'm also transgender.
Well, last year, throughout the summer, my girlfriend left me and broke my heart.
We both were very close friends, I thought she was a wonderful person.
At first, she seemed wonderful, she was cute, beautiful, intelligent, creative, talented, sweet, kind, generous, warm hearted but after we fell in love, her beliefs and friends got in the way of our relationship.
Her friends didn't like me and she ended becoming a homophobe who hates animals and is against Buddhism.
She lied to me and said she didn't care about who I was on the outside, she claimed to love animals and Buddhists.
She said she thinks Buddhists are sweet, kind, caring people and agreed with me that Buddhism leads to a great lifestyle.
She was open about it.
She also said she adored animals and said she can't stand animal abuse and the thought of it makes her feel sick but after her friends made fun of me, she left me and said that being with me would leave her cursed forever.
It really hurt me.
And she turned out to be a liar! She wasn't the woman I thought she was, she turned out to be a liar and sleeps around.
I keep trying to tell myself, she's not who I thought she was and is bad for me but I just can't get her out of my head.
I still love her, even though it's been like nearly 2 years.
She was my world, I adored her.
How could such an amazing woman turn to some cold, heartless being out of nowhere?
I'm sorry if this is in the wrong forum, I know that the lounge is for random discussions and the others are for Buddhists studies.