I haven't visited a temple or monastery yet but I plan to visit the one in Hemel Hempstead.
I'll probably post-phone the ordaining. It appears I still have a lot to learn.
A lot of people were questioning me as to why I wanted to become a monk.
I believe the lifestyle would be good for me, also I want to spread peace.
I feel I'd benefit from the monastery lifestyle. The nuns & monks work hard, they help out the community and they gain friendship.
Such dicipline (good kind, not bad) and escape from the suffering such as the attachment, greed & lust.
But as we all can see, I'm still struggling with the attachment.
Why do I/did I love this woman?
I felt such a powerful connection & chemistry between us.
She intrigued me.
She's a wonderful person but her heart belongs to another
Many of you know me & don't know me but romantic theft is something I would never do, Buddhist or not Buddhist.
I'm a little proud of myself as I've made a small step in the becoming less attached stage by letting go of something that felt special. Edit:
I wanted to join a monastery before I discovered these feelings.