imagemarie wrote:I don't think I could sustain this practice for very long.. it sounds like real ego-busting stuff.
Well, that's the point, isn't it? To see through the sense of self...
Remember that this is a talk by U Pandita addressing a group of experienced meditators who had done numerous retreats before. I wouldn't advise going straight to that level of intensity.
If you listen to a few of Joseph Goldstein's talks interesting little anecdotes about that retreat will pop up.
One was, if I recall correctly, that Sharon Salzberg went through a period there where U Pandita would keep asking her about little things that were cleverly designed to be not things that she had paid attention to: "How did you feel brushing your teeth this morning?". "Ummm..." end of interview. Next day she was ready for the teeth question, but the first question was: "How did you feel when you bowed just now when you came in?", "Ummm...". And so on, until she learned to pay attention to
everything...
My teachers have never been quite so intense, but one of them sometimes asks little things, like if we can remember which finger moved first when we unclasped our hands when moving from walking to sitting meditation. Partly to make clear that there is a lot that we don't notice.
Anyway, bear in mind that this is part of a whole package. It doesn't necessarily work to try to pick out bits of different practises and bolt them together... Pay attention to your teacher...
Also, after you've spent several days on retreat not talking, just meditating and paying attention, it becomes a lot easier and more natural. This applies to all techniques, of course. Don't judge any of them by what you can do by practising for an hour or two a day...
Mike