Whenever I try to be kind I get taken advantage of and treated worst then when I don't go out of my way to be nice. I try to be kind and compassionate because it makes me feel happy but when people start taking advantage of my kindness it just gets me fed up and makes me feel terrible. It's been an on going cycle, I try to be kind and compassionate, I feel happy inside because of it, people come a long, start treating me terribly, walk all over me and I get angry and drop the whole kind and compassionate attitude. I think the main reason people treat me so horribly is because I lack confidence and self esteem. A person who is kind but has no confidence = a doormat for other people to walk all over. On top of this, I have too much pride. I know pride is a bad thing so of late I've been trying to swallow my pride and continue to be kind however people treat me, but it gets real difficult when people are nasty even though I'm trying to be nice and sometimes i feel like I'm going to explode and want to go off on them. When this happens, my seeds of loving kindness and compassion disappear and i stop caring to be kind. For me, loving kindness and compassion is a double edge sword. It can bring me so much warmth and peace but at the same time it also brings me so much suffering. What should I do? Thanks.