khlawng wrote: salmon wrote:
PS. this is a phase that MANY meditators go through...it'll pass
I do suspect this is the case with many people indeed.
Any personal experience to share on what are some of the phases you guys went through and the strategies you employ to keep practicing? Personally, I went through 4 months of meditative and mindful bliss before getting all wound up in worldly matters for 6months and then coming back a little stronger in the practice the past 2 months. I am determine to keep at it this time round but have a strong suspicion that is just wishful thinking.
I had a job that I was working massive overtime, 50-60 and sometimes 70 hours a week, and I very much disliked it, although I meditated everyday when I got up from bed and before I went to bed. Then I got sick, had to go to the hospital and quit my job, and finally moved back in with my parents.
Then as I was back with my parents, I had all this free time, with so much free time, I didn't know what to do, I didn't want to watch TV because I didn't want to get back into bad habit, so I started getting really really bored. I read suttas for 2-4 hours, and tried to meditate for 1-2 hours, but even then I had too much time. I not only became really bored, but really depressed, and felt like I was suffering almost as much as when I had a job! So I read some suttas regarding the layperson, and now I think, well, I AM a layperson, so I will will watch TV and I will play video games, and listen to music, and so I did and now I feel balanced and content and no longer bored. I still read the suttas for 2-4 hours and meditate for 1-3 hours. So I feel much better. Now I need to transition my bad habits to good habits, like from TV to Tennis and video games to meeting people
Also when I get a job again, it should be a balanced and healthy job.
Nothing wrong with indulging in worldly pleasures if you are a layperson, as long as you are mindful and stay centered. Work is a VERY good thing, a lot of people hate work, but I'll tell you this, if you find the job that's right for you, maybe a simple job with no stress, and you can build some wealth while you're at it so you can enjoy some worldly pleasure then your life will be much better as a layperson. You have to keep the middle way, stay balanced, don't get a job that will take over your life, but also don't have too much free time.
I hope that helps.
“An effect can become a cause, reinforcing the original cause and producing the same effect in an intensified form, and so on indefinitely.” - George Orwell