If you have aversion from meditation, I recommend that you get a copy of Ajahn Sumedho's book 'The sound of silence" and study the chapters on contemplation of the body. Also, if you research on the net, these talks are available for free in pdf under a different title that I don't remember because I bought the hard copy book from the publisher. Basically, there is nothing to do there in meditation....just study the body first, what's happening with that? It's not work. The dhamma and liberation is not about hard work, but just seeing what's in front of you. It's all the dhamma. Don't try so hard.
There is no one in you to achieve anything, but be with what is. Medidation, doesn't necessarily mean sitting on a cushion. You could check out books like 'http://www.ajahnchah.org/pdf/food_for_the_heart.pdf
' or 'Eight Mindful Steps to Happiness" If meditation is something that only happens on the cushion, that's probably not going to satisfy "you".