Crazy Cloud, So that was you. I knew somebody was spying on me :p
And yes, I see what you mean. It takes time, and I'm doing better as time goes by.
Mkoll,"being a light unto myself" is obviously misleading me for now, and, from what I read from you guys, I'm doing it all wrong, haha.
So that's an easy line to throw, but it's not that easy. I read, learn, try stuff, but still am so lost I guess. Before the feedback I had here I thought I was not doing that bad, as I turned, in a few years, from a very emotionally disturbed and easily offended person, to a much smoother and calm person, pursuing my ego as much as I can to unveil it, accepting impermanence, and so on. But I still have so much to learn.