Thanks for taking the time to reply. It's helpful to me.
Reality as 'intended' for human beings is what is optimal for development and function as a human.
I don't get the impression you're 'harmful.' Do you? Why would you be harmful?
To me, reality pertaining to human perception has been a problem and my manner of abiding as a human being had been severely maligned and is still so but much gentler that had been. My concern became at times what seemed to be more that an average problem, for example, when people helped me and the more I was helped people would experience rather poignant problems that seemed to be a problem beyond what I'm able to describe. Maybe I was just over concerned.
In terms of me being harmful, no I don't view myself to be harmful, I was responding to a question earlier in the thread but hadn't familiarized myself with quoting prior comments. I chose very thoroughly to suffer for people who seemed to be adversely effected by what I was experiencing which has de-solved for the most part and as I refused to spread what I became of to other people.
Everyone has a firm belief in what is and is not 'real.' Because your version of what is 'real' is so far different from the popular version of reality, you may very well be assuming that your reality is more true than other people's realities, but it is someway obscured from the view of 'normal' people. We each have our own version of reality, and they are all equally subjectively 'true.' However, some versions of reality are better at reducing suffering and making predictions about the Outside World.
This is sorta my point, what I came to experience based on wrongful action of quite a number of Triratna Buddhist Community (formally the wbo) members, in my view, may have became something that may have resulted in many problems resulting in alterations in too many peoples experience of reality in a way that again may be a problem. Something that is sorta behind me now, although I don't know for sure.
This sounds a bit like megalomania to me.
My experience with the homeless youth I had taken in, as I experienced it, is something of a nature that is very unusual as is still my daily experience. Like, I communicate with being that are embodied by other human beings via mental formations. It's sorta disturbing actually. I discern, despite not believing and fairly thoroughly, each people has three rightful guides, whom change during developmental growth and aging, as chosen before gaining a human birth, one of whom is to be embodied by the person at all times.
As the story goes, I began discerning such things about 2 or 3 years ago and very poignantly. An issue I was dealing with included manners of the Church and Crown
possessing the human life, meaning some manner of heaven-ward being or more guiding the person and the three rightful guides.
For me, despite what I understand of Buddhist skillfulness, I still have great concern pertaining how I came experience the effects on my life as to how a persons body becomes the property of the Church and Crown
. The problem for me is that I feel I had gained some manner of achievement while at a Thai Forrest Buddhist monastery which resulted in what I have come to refer to as having gained inherent wisdom
. As the story of the Odyssey I experienced goes, the issue became, in some manner of speaking, an indifference (manners of how history is referenced with disregard for harmful influences on others) between Christian and Buddhist influences on human abiding, spiritual/religious achievement. My biggest concern here is how my experience might have and may still influence causality or cause and effect in consideration of the Buddhist teachings which occurred, so to speak, before the odyssey began.
Prior to the problems or maybe what might be referred to as the Iliad
, I had experienced about 11 years of life in which I had gained and experienced very wonderful ebbs and flows of what I'm identify as of jhanna states, thus a circumstance concerning resolving indifferences pertaining to what religious view was in the right in claiming credit for whatever it is/was that I achieved, too sound a little like an idiot about it and for lack of a better way of explaining. Or, having been baptized Episcopalian at a late age of youth, the issue had been posed. Thus, I had and have come to participate as to what I literally agreed to amongst non-physical beings, as a Peace Ambassador, of which hasn't felt respected by Christian oriented beings.
LIterally, there have been times where I've witnessed a large group of people I was in the presence of be embodied by
Angelic Christian oriented beings influencing the conversation of people, including that those that feel they have a right to possess my body as property have taken the liberty to speak with my speech faculty beyond my ability to discern what is being communicated in reference to cause and effect. A huge problem that to me amounts to huge indiscretions pertaining to human abiding and reality beyond what what seems right.
This is one of the particulars that I'm hoping to gain help with.
Or you're indulging in delusion and megalomania.
So, what I've explained so far hopefully sheds some light on the issues as to whether reality and delusion. Delusion to me includes a process of resolving what is right, to some extent. In terms of megalomania
, to me I discern such considerations on my part and experience to be a forced suffrage
, for lack of a better way of explaining/theorizing, that in my case resulted in a manner of societal mentality
oriented to people vicariously and gratuitously benefiting from my suffrage
. Something I'm not clear on as to whether it's wrongly disproportionate in reference to Christian culture and manners of possessing human life as property and in consideration of colonization and neo-liberalism
These '300,000 million children' (that's 300 billion, by the way, which would be a lot of kids!) are most certainly a product of your own delusion. I am sorry.
Oops, yes, I meant three hundred million. To mention, the beings I'm referring to are predominantly beings whom had been abiding of eternity as Christianity has maintained, if I'm correct here. One of the constant issues I've cognisized (sp?) is that some manner of Earth Creation law is that human life and Earth abiding are limited to 750 years of an
, if abiding of a rightful presence here on Earth, thus the extended eternity being criminal.
One cognisized concept that awkward to deal with is that the reason human civilization and society has been maligned from it's intended evolution is that Lucifer was defeated. I the historical human population is considered, what has been shared with me, delusion or not, or whatever the truth is, malignment from rightful human abiding and civilizations societal evolution wasn't a problem until Lucifer was defeated and as I might tell my story, it's easy for me to discern a good being in my presence, despite possible discernment issues, and Lucifer is an Arc Angel that is very careful about what is best and hoped for for this Creation. Something that is difficult for me to identify with while for me, I've had some problems that seemed to rightly improve in the presence of Lucifer.
I responded in a way where, despite it possibly being beyond me, I required that He be good for this creation and I've even been in the presence of both Lucifer and Lord Buddha and by all indications they work/participate cooperatively and with respected boundaries, honesty, truth be told in that I'd rather not make mistakes concerning such issues.
I like the parallel you seem to have made between bodhisattvas and martyrs however. =D
In terms of circumstance I've cognisized and not something my imagination would have imagined of my own accord as is the case with much of what I'm explaining, Prophecy the predated the time of Genesis includes that it is three representatives of human kindness, so to speak, will extend manners of consideration for to human abiding and evolution, in my story as cognisized, it is contemporary
meek beings, bodhisattvas and martyrs, martyrs including manners of human abiding that aren't representative of what might be identification with the manner of human abiding one is experiencing in terms of skin color, and cultural origin of the considered human life.
What's interesting about my story is that about 6 months ago, as the process of discerning my origins occurred despite my aversion to such issues, is that my origins, in consideration of some sense of a 7,000 year boundary, my origins are of Islam and particularly of martyrdom , while my spiritual/religious achievement has been of Buddhism in terms of responded to teachings and I've identified with being of Christian origins my whole life until recently. A funny notion for me is, including how I experience abiding with Muslim beings, is the notion of delusional Christian American Jehad, in this case where balance and harmony results of resolve, is the practice and everyone lives, so to speak.
I don't think Jupiter would make that great a home. I suggest Mars or the Moon as better alternatives.
In terms of other planets, for some beings, planets within the solar system are a hop skip and jump away. Manners of abiding orient to the nature of the environment of different planets and in reference to being of the non-physical realms. My understanding is that Jupiter is prevalently a fortunate place to be if not of Earth. Seemingly, Neptune is the next planet to gain a Creation such as is on Earth. Once, I was visited by being who were abiding on Uranus of whom had abided of Mars when there was a Creation there. I don't believe it while it was real as is everything I'm explaining. It in no way makes sense to me that my experience and the story
are false, although discerning the truth during the course of an Odyssey is something that in my sense is forced for particular purposes. Does anyone know of any truths required and in association with an Odyssey?
Also, in reference to me sounding messianic, I have consciously chosen to fulfill responsibilities concerning such issues, keeping in mind that I've resolved to limit my achievements to Buddha-hood in consideration of long term, which I understand Lord Buddha is supportive of. I've generally and purposefully chosen to distance myself from identifying myself as Buddhist to as to protect Buddhism from some issues that seemed to have made Buddhist teachings vulnerable to being of history in reference to causality and how human beings are guided. For me, there is still a gray area concerning such issues, which is the reason I'm sharing my story, so as to at the very least communicate what I view to be a problem which I alone should not address and is why I'm appealing for help. When I say I feel that I should be attended to by senior Buddhist monks, it's because I refused to be used to give any religion the ability to malign Buddhist teachings. It's real to me, at least the bottom line. Of issue of most prominence are Buddhist teachings on the breath, amongst others including evolution and human abiding and spiritual/religious achievement. The breath having been something I was very good at practicing.
I hope my analysis was a little sobering.
Honestly, what sobering to me is that I've finally gotten to the point where I can explain such things. A responsibility I've been trying to address in terms of doing whatever I can to ensure that if anything that I've experienced is real, that I hope some senior Buddhist teachers do take the story seriously or something to that effect. To explain a little further, when I say attend to, I mean in person. I feel it's that necessary. I do appreciate what I've discerned in terms of responses I've experienced so far but I feel I must at the very least communicate at least once, it feels to be a things that should be attended to for the entirety of the rest of my life. Not so I can gain attention or extend my
teachings or something of such a silly nature. If I was attended to as I feel it would be something Buddhist people would choose if they knew what I'm explaining, maybe it might end up be revealed as a false alarm or something but by all means, I'm glad I'm finally getting around to communicating what I generally feel is necessary so that the issue can be addressed by more capable people on particular senior Buddhist monks. Honesty being the best policy, I feel very clearly that such issues as who I am and what I experience should be addressed directly, something I've tried to gain in different way's without success so far.
Expressing such things is what is sobering to me, that I finally feel I've expressed and explained what I view to be needful and that it's a responsibility I've to some extent fulfilled and hopefully the appropriate people will respond if not to just make sure the problems are attended to if there are any and I've alluded to.