You'll just have to play ball on the rites and rituals. It doesn't matter what you think on the inside, outwardly you must conform. You can use it as way to develop equanimity too. I was getting fed up with all the rituals and cultural accretions at one stage - Then I realized that I was only allowing myself to harbour hatred. It doesn't matter where you direct it, it always has the same negative impact upon your mind and others.
I would say one of the most important qualities to develop if you want to be a monk is being contented with little. Easier said than done, but if you foster that attitude right, life becomes very easy, no matter what external challenges are faced.
"For a disciple who has conviction in the Teacher's message & lives to penetrate it, what accords with the Dhamma is this:
'The Blessed One is the Teacher, I am a disciple. He is the one who knows, not I." -