Or to put it as Bhikkhu Samahita says: "Clever Disgust by anti-porn thereby cooling all lust and greed for body!"
Now there we go. I'm pretty cool with all those artificial drawings of human anatomy and the organs, since they're often so artifical that i don't feel any disgust.
But the real "corpse pictures" that Bhikku Samahita provided - i just can't take it! My whole body trembles just from taking a glimpse at these utterly disgusting, horrifying pictures of death. I can't even look at them for 5 seconds straight without the horror of this sight making me want to run & look away. I really, really can't take it! My stomach feels sick just from this glimpse!
Now that was a one of a kind experience.. Very shocking but Death as a heavenly messenger of truth does a good job.
Now i would love to overcome this fear, this horror, this suffering and i "feel" this is the best opportunity to do so.
Questions:
"How can i contemplate the body if my fear irritates me so strongly while looking at these pictures?"
"What can i do to deal with the fear in this situation?"
In general any advice on how to contemplate the body would be greatly appreciated as it would help me greatly to cool lust and greed for body.
Best wishes,
Alobha
PS: Below is the Post of Bhikku Samahita i'm refering to. You can check out the link to photobucket but be prepared, you have been warned
Bhikkhu_Samahita wrote:Friends:
Awareness of the Body just as a Foul Frame!
The Buddha once asked: How does one view the Body only as a Form?
Herein, Bhikkhus & Friends, the Bhikkhu contemplates the body from the
soles of the feet upward, and from the top of the hair downward like this:
This filthy frame with skin stretched over it, which is filled with many kinds
of impurities consists of head-hairs, body-hairs, nails, teeth, skin, flesh,
sinews, bones, marrow, kidneys, heart, liver, vomit, diaphragm, spleen, lungs,
intestine, membranes, stomach, excrement, brain, bile, lymph, pus, blood,
sweat, fat, tears, skin, tallow, spit, snot, joint-fluid, and urine...
Just as if a man with good sight would examine a sack with openings at both
ends, filled with various kinds of grain; paddy, beans, sesame, on opening it
would recognize its contents thus: That is paddy, this is beans, that is sesame,
this is husked rice: Even exactly so does the Bhikkhu investigate this body...
While always fully aware & clearly comprehending, he thus removes any lust,
urge, envy, frustration and discontent rooted in this world! Such intelligent
Bhikkhu keeps contemplating any and all bodies as remote carcasses of filthy
foul form. As something bound to emerge, decay and then inevitably vanish...
Not regarding the body as 'mine', as belonging to 'me', or as very 'my self'!
Not regarding the body as lasting, safe, as pleasant beauty, or as happiness!
In this way the intelligent Bhikkhu keeps reviewing any & all bodies, whether
internal or external, whether his own or others, and he notes the cause of its
arising and the cause of its ceasing, or he just notice: There is this body!
In this way he comes to live not clinging to & thus independent of the body!
This is the way to contemplate the body only as a transient empty shell...
The fine reward is fearlessness of death and thereby fearlessness of all!
Without fear there is the mental elevation of gladness and confidence!
This contemplation detaches one from the body & form and frees thereby...
Clever Disgust by anti-porn thereby cooling all lust and greed for body!
Just a painted puppet!
A chain of bones plastered by skin with 9 oozing holes!
A heap of sores and rotten excrement with evil intentions!
For Inspiration have a collection of Corpse Pictures been deposited here:
http://s914.photobucket.com/albums/ac350/Asubha/" onclick="window.open(this.href);return false; Password: corpses
See also: A Bag of Bones: On the Body compiled by Bhikkhu Khantipalo:
http://www.accesstoinsight.org/lib/auth ... eel271.htm" onclick="window.open(this.href);return false;
http://What-Buddha-Said.net/drops/II/Me ... a-Sati.htm" onclick="window.open(this.href);return false;
http://What-Buddha-Said.net/drops/III/T ... ations.htm" onclick="window.open(this.href);return false;
http://What-Buddha-Said.net/drops/IV/Ho ... _Greed.htm" onclick="window.open(this.href);return false;
http://What-Buddha-Said.net/drops/III/B ... y_Form.htm" onclick="window.open(this.href);return false;
http://What-Buddha-Said.net/drops/IV/Co ... tation.htm" onclick="window.open(this.href);return false;
http://What-Buddha-Said.net/drops/II/Ev ... g_body.htm" onclick="window.open(this.href);return false;
http://What-Buddha-Said.net/drops/IV/Th ... Flesch.htm" onclick="window.open(this.href);return false;
http://What-Buddha-Said.net/drops/III/The_32_Parts.htm" onclick="window.open(this.href);return false;
http://What-Buddha-Said.net/drops/III/The_Skeleton.htm" onclick="window.open(this.href);return false;
http://What-Buddha-Said.net/drops/IV/Food_Disgust.htm" onclick="window.open(this.href);return false;
http://What-Buddha-Said.net/drops/IV/Oozing_Out.htm" onclick="window.open(this.href);return false;
http://what-buddha-said.net/drops/V/Bluish_Victory.htm" onclick="window.open(this.href);return false;
Have a nice & noble day!
Friendship is the Greatest!
Bhikkhu Samahita _/\_
http://What-Buddha-Said.net" onclick="window.open(this.href);return false;
A bag of bones, flesh, skin, hair, teeth, and nails...
The 32 Parts!
http://What-Buddha-Said.net/drops/III/The_32_Parts.htm" onclick="window.open(this.href);return false;