I have been into two 10 day courses of Vipassana of S.N.Goenka Tradition, to be honest the first course I did with more perseverance, and enjoyed. Second one I did not really give my full effort yet completed. After 5 yrs I tried a 3rd one but left on 2nd day. And now a days I am not at all meditating, as well I became more or less a worldly person such as alcohol, wandering mind, I hardly practice now. So Some times I feel to go for another course, but I am not prepared, not enough courageous to do so, keeping in mind previous failure. Some times I feel, Don't I practice Vipassana with out going to 10 days courses?? Should i really need to go? But Some times I feel I have to go....!!
What am I thinking is if i really wanted to go again, I have to keep my practice regular and mock up little bit the 10 days conditions at home, for ex: eating less in nights, having 6 hrs sleep, be mindfulness etc. Please suggest me if there are other ways or other practices that I can try at home...!! I wanted to give a serious try...!!
Thanks in adv