i once had a friend who watched the ground beneath his feet as he walked. the weather was hot and there were many ants on the ground. he wanted to make sure he did not kill any ants by stepping on them.
one day at lunch i asked him to show me his feet. when i looked i saw many dead ants on the soles of his feet. i did not know if i would upset him by telling him but i did so anyway.
after i had told him, he smiled and said 'i did not mean to'. he lived with right intention but in life things always happen that arent in our control or how we would like but we carry on from day to day living as best we can.
you seem to have good intention villkorkarma but do not worry about locking yourself in a cave. live life and accept all it has for you.
Aflame with the fire of passion, the fire of aversion, the fire of delusion.
Aflame, with birth, aging & death, with sorrows, lamentations, pains, distresses, & despairs ......
Seeing thus, the disciple of the Noble One grows disenchanted. SN 35.28