adosa wrote:Hi Flying Ox,
You need to chill on Tilt. There's an old saying that many people will tell you what you want to hear, but a true friend will tell you the truth. Do you still get angry, do you still crave for things, are you still attached to a view of self?
You claimed to have attained realization which would equate to the cutting off of greed, anger, and delusion. Then you're told "well maybe not." Then you unload in what appears to be anger. So maybe you were told the truth here. Isn't that friendship and not enmity? Would you rather you be told, "Ah you got it! Liberation." Then walk around deluded for the next, say, billion eons? Keep practicing. If nothing else it's an interesting thing to watch, this deluded thing we call "mind."
Wishing you the best,
I’ve developed a really good jhana meditation practice, that’s all. Apparently, I still get frustrated and angry at times, but it doesn’t really seem like anger. It’s like being in a dream state that isn’t quite real. Detached and indifferent bitterness is a good way to describe it. I have developed such a good jhana meditation that the hindrance of anger is merely silenced. I believe that some of the other hindrances have been completely uprooted, though, but then again, who knows, they too may merely be silenced for a time.
As far as tilt goes, I don’t hold anything against him. He was just trying to help in his own way.
You ask whether I would like to be told that I have attained enlightenment when I really haven’t just to be mislead for aeons upon aeons of years? Well, no, that wouldn’t be very helpful, but I WOULD like to get it over with and not have to worry about it ever again. You say that it is all about the journey, well, I don’t much like that answer, even if it is the truth. This is taking so long that it is beginning to seem like a big run around where no one ever attains anything, since it is supposed to be all about the journey as you say. I’m sorry, but that isn’t good enough. I don’t want to come back to this physical realm anymore. I’m sick of it. I don’t want to come back to this crap! This big mass of suffering!
One is encouraged to seek the truth, but be warned if you ever find it, you will be treated as blasphemous.