I was getting into it, almost daily, usually for 25 minutes.....then the leader at our meditation group went on a retreat, and everything was ok for a couple weeks, with guest leaders on the weekly sits; but one day I had to do something around that time in the day, and didn't go. That week I found I meditatied less often, and this increased until I'd not meditated for over 2 months. I'd remember and practice some mindfulness during the day here and there, but haven't brought myself to sit until a couple days ago. Now I've done 3 10 minute sits, and it hasn't been too bad, but I am afraid anything and everything else is too seductive to my attention, and I will give up again, but it's one of those things I want to do, and don't want to do at the same time. When I have this sort of situation, laziness and impulsivity almost always win. I would like to get back into it again though. Does anyone have any advice that has had issues with becoming bored or losing interest in the practice even though you don't want to? One possible conclusion I've come to is maybe sila comes first, and until I clean house, I will be unable to make much progress?
"It is what it is." -foreman infamous for throwing wrenches in fits of rage