My way to enlightenment

General discussion of issues related to Theravada Meditation, e.g. meditation postures, developing a regular sitting practice, skillfully relating to difficulties and hindrances, etc.
villkorkarma
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My way to enlightenment

Postby villkorkarma » Wed Jan 12, 2011 10:51 pm

Hello I believe I am very close to the first level of enlightenment, not so much hate and delusion left.
Well, i am very afraid of loosing control and do something stupid again so I will feel very scared and feel very miserable, very miserable.
I think I have been near the first level of enlightenment when I was a kid, but I didnt have the motivation to continue my practise, but I feel I have strong motivation becourse I know how hard the life can be and how miserable one can feel.
It feelt good to talk to you with that. Work out your own salvation. Thank you for a good forum.
one suffer because one hasnt existed long : )

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Paul Davy
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Re: My way to enlightenment

Postby Paul Davy » Wed Jan 12, 2011 10:56 pm

Greetings villkorkarma,

Well, keep at it.

Just be prepared for the possibility that what currently feels "very close" to the first level of enlightenment, may well feel "very far away" from it some time in the future.

What would such a backwards step in your self-assessment do to your practice? Be prepared.

Metta,
Retro. :)
"Do not force others, including children, by any means whatsoever, to adopt your views, whether by authority, threat, money, propaganda, or even education." - Ven. Thich Nhat Hanh

"The uprooting of identity is seen by the noble ones as pleasurable; but this contradicts what the whole world sees." (Snp 3.12)

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Ben
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Re: My way to enlightenment

Postby Ben » Wed Jan 12, 2011 11:00 pm

Greetings villkorkarma,
villkorkarma wrote:Hello I believe I am very close to the first level of enlightenment,

In the words of my teacher:
Be mindful! be heedful! be careful!
“No lists of things to be done. The day providential to itself. The hour. There is no later. This is later. All things of grace and beauty such that one holds them to one's heart have a common provenance in pain. Their birth in grief and ashes.”
- Cormac McCarthy, The Road

Learn this from the waters:
in mountain clefts and chasms,
loud gush the streamlets,
but great rivers flow silently.
- Sutta Nipata 3.725

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