I have a few questions regarding what's happening with my meditation, I wanted to know if this happens to others, and if any advice can be given.
When I meditate, and my body starts to calm down, and I "let go" of control, my head starts tipping backwards, and then my body starts tipping backwards. If I am on my bed, and do not control my body then I will tip over backwards onto my back. This happens in full lotus and half lotus. So now I can only meditate on the floor, however sometimes when I meditate on the floor, my head will still tilt all the way back and if I open my eyes I will be looking at the ceiling. Should I control my head or not? This does not happen all the time.
As for my second experience, lately I think I have been getting the nimatta. When I am in the beautiful breath stage, when my breath is very smooth, subtle and calm, it feels very easy to handle, I start to get the glow effect, or warming effect. When the glow becomes stronger and stronger, my body starts to feel energy and gets excited, because it gets excited it's hard to stay calm, the breath starts to get heavier again and not so subtle and calm, which makes the nimatta go away. Will my body eventually stop getting excited if I see the nimatta more and more?
The third thing that happens, when the nimatta is strong, I start to get strong energy in my crotch area, like as if I am about to have a boner, I don't know why this happens, maybe it's part of the excitement.
My fourth question is, in the book "Anapanasati Secrets" by Buddhadassa he says to create images and then change the images in your mind to get to the nimatta. Should you "Create" the nimatta? Isn't that effort? or should the nimatta come by itself? I can only get calm if I put in no effort, if I start putting in effort then its harder to be calm.
Thanks for your help.
“An effect can become a cause, reinforcing the original cause and producing the same effect in an intensified form, and so on indefinitely.” - George Orwell