rowyourboat wrote:Hi Smokey
I know many many people who have gained this insight knowledge! It is the first one and not that difficult to gain insight into.
No doubt. Absolutely agree.
This can be know by yourself. You can see it by yourself.
It was last 20 years ago, when I was 17, the time I didn't know much how to meditate or how to watch mind properly, but I did exactly what meditation teacher said. It was in Mahasi Meditation Center, Rangoon, Burma.
The day after 15 days of start meditation, I was in sitting posture, noting the touching of my lower hand palm and upper hand fingers as usual. Suddenly one friend appearing in my mind and she calling me by my name. Once I heard it, I felt great sorrow with big regret knowing she is making a big mistake calling me. At that moment there's no persons or he or she or dog or Peter. In fact, it can not define that is me nor that is "Ansdkant". It exists only physical object and knowing object at that point. Not me at all. Not me any more.
The same time, I felt all I believed before are just fakes they can not exist there. Everything/Everyone lied to me. But I don't know who lied to me for what. I felt with deep sorrow, sadness and lot of regrets with tears from my eyes. I can not stop crying, because that idea is absolutely true and it's make me frighten as every time my mind though about it. My identity was gone. "I" is nothing, it's just a consequence of not knowing the reality. And also I don't know about crying but except deep regrets. And I don't know what to do next either. I lost everything. I can't find anywhere that I have to tell "I am". Big loser.
It's like a feeling of someone who facing a Big Earthquake that he never experienced before. Everything he believed/accepted like even earth (he even never think about Earth that support him always till just before he experiencing the earthquake) also not a real one. It can be destroyed or unstable at any time. His parents also can not help him out at the time of earthquake. Even animals (dogs/cats) and all livings are so frightened and don't know what to do next.
That feeling is so deep. Life change experience. Once after that moment, my believe is so dare, even I can bet my life if someone force me to discard that reality. Also I start believe in Buddha with deep heart. He was right. He told the truth. He really existed on this planet. No doubt at all.
Later I understand, this experience is just a start in my journey, I found a lot more interesting thing in Vispassna Meditation.
PS: Those kind of shocks can be encountered in somewhere along the way in Vispassna. It's not a strange thing or wonderful thing. When later shocks I encountered after some years, I am not frighten like first time.