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Overcoming passion

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Hi, this is my first post so apologies if it is in the wrong section or even the completely wrong forum.

I have been practicing Goenka based Vipassana for the better part of 16 years. I have even sat longer courses and am pretty good at maintaining my daily practice of 2 hours. During my practice of Vipassana I have become much calmer and more focussed, have stopped drinking and drug-taking altogether (used to be a heavy drinker and pot smoker) and generally feel much better about the direction my life is taking.

However, I still feel that I am way too easily overcome by passion. I am in a very happy marriage, my wife is also an old student of Vipassana, yet too often I find myself browsing inappropriate websites and engaging in self-sex. I spend way too much time fantasising about other women even though there is absolutely no way I would act out these fantasies in real life.

I am also a member of an online support group for these sorts of behaviours but pretty much all the other members are coming from a Christian /12 step perspective which doesn't resonate with me at all.

I was wondering if anyone here has encountered similar difficulties and what they have done about it.

Thanks for reading.
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Hi Urgesurfer and welcome to DW!
I'm also an 'old student' of SN Goenka. As a matter of interest, when you say you've done longer courses, specifically, what length courses have you done? And when did you do them?
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Check out this 32 parts body meditation. It reduces the attraction to our external self.
This meditation has a special place in the Dharma. It is one of very few subjects of meditation which contain both a tranquillity aspect and an insight aspect. As well, it is a very useful practical meditation, providing a powerful antidote to the hindrance of lust.

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UrgeSurfer wrote:I find myself browsing inappropriate websites and engaging in self-sex. I spend way too much time fantasising about other women even
There is nothing here to beat yourself over. If anything, you might try extending some compassion towards yourself. And when you are having these urges, before get out of hand (or in hand), best when you just feel the initial inkling, just sit quietly and pay attention without comment to what you are feeling, the urge to resist the action, the urge to act on the desire. Even though the habits are deeply established, you can choose how to act here, to sit quietly, paying attention.

Of course, all of that easy to say and very difficult to do, but each time you choose to simply try to pay attention rather than allowing yourself to get lost in the feelings, acting on your desires, you are weakening the hold of the old pattern. And as I said, have compassion for yourself, be kind to yourself, just as you would towards another who might be coming to you with this problem, asking for advice. And be kind to yourself in your "failures." In paying attention you learn the nature of the habit that is driving you. You see the discomfort of wanting, the pain of wanting to not want, the burning of the sexual urge and humiliation of giving into it when you think you should not.

Basically, allow yourself to be uncomfortable. Learn to start putting some space around the urges, stepping back a bit just so you can pay attention - without comment. One of the more interesting experiences in meditation is catching that moment when the desire drops away.

All of this is going to be a struggle, an exploration, which is well worth doing. You have the meditation experience. It will be a bit different from what you are use to doing, but the basics are there to just pay attention to what arises and falls in your mind/body as the urge to act out starts to present itself. Like the habit you developed, it will need to be done over and over. There is really no other way.
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Maybe fast for a day or two, and really get used to the hunger pangs. Then, later, when you feel the sort of lust arising as you mention, you might try equating it with the hunger feeling. Mere groin hunger, instead of gut hunger, if you will. Because of having suffered from relatively severe gastrointestinal issues, decoupling such urges and noting them as mere body input is of great help to me. Maybe such an approach can help here as well.

Another method from my experience: it is definitely the case that related thoughts increase the valence of the hunger (in either case) - at the root thereof I find a certain boredom, and the related thoughts which arise seem to be the minds way of finding me something to do, i.e. of solving the boredom. Well, boredom is dukkha, and in response to such thoughts I reiterate that I have gone for refuge to the Dhamma, and not to the minds native skills (because the Dhamma works against suffering while native skills only keep me alive to propagate DNA). In my experience, therefore, being mindful of such boredom as it arises can prevent lust from even developing.

The Buddha himself remarks in the Vinaya that sexual desire is a tenacious bugbear (I paraphrase), so take heart. We're all in this together.

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Thanks for all the compassion and wisdom in all your answers.

@Ben, I did a 20 day course last year. I have also sat two Satipatthana courses.

@pegembara, thanks for the link. Actually an Assistant Teacher I went and talked to a few years ago about this same issue recommended much the same thing. At the time it didn't really gel with me, but I'm willing to look at it again.

@tiltbillings, thanks a lot for your post. I've really been trying to get to the place you describe. It's good to hear it reflected back at me.

@daverupa, I agree with a lot in your post, boredom is definitely a 'trigger' for me.
tiltbillings wrote:… the basics are there to just pay attention to what arises and falls in your mind/body as the urge to act out starts to present itself. Like the habit you developed, it will need to be done over and over. There is really no other way.
I think this is the heart of the matter. Deep down I know what I need to do, it's just a matter of sticking to doing it.

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I know what you lack of,tranquility and concentration. Samatha meditation will help. Engage in tranquility meditation. If it's better if you can enter Jhana. Practice more.
Identify yourself, let's try this out. If you practice vipassana you feel really peaceful, try on samatha. If you practice samatha and feel very hard to keep it up, i suggest you train samatha. Now you lack tranquility in attacking your desires.

Few days ago, I did engaged myself on m@aturbation. But then I found out, even I know that I should not be doing it(having observant on my actions), but my mind is too weak to overcome the desire. So I trained myself in samatha meditation. And I can see now the effect of it, the desires are slowly losing. But I'm still thinking of it....shyt.... oh well, going back to samatha again. :anjali:
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Samatha meditation is not enough — one should practice vipassanā meditation.

There are four foundations of mindfulness — the body, feelings, thoughts, and mental states. One should observe and be mindful of all four, not only the body (respiration) and feelings, but also consciousness (citta) and dhamma.

When seeing a visible object with the eye, be aware that you see it. So too, with sounds, odours, tastes, and touches. Be especially mindful when thinking thoughts. Fantasising must be known and noted whenever it arises as a mental process. Don't suppress it, know it for what it is — utter delusion and heedlessness.

So too with mental states: when lust or anger arise they should be observed as they occur. When sloth or restless arise they should be known too, and when doubt or confusion arises, it should also be known. All mental states should be observed in the same way — excited, elated, joyful, sorrowful, anxious, fearful, etc.

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“A multitude of passions such as covetousness and rage, springing from ideas, torments one who takes a firm hold of it, with the result that his mind becomes burdened with vexation. Therefore, nibbāna remains remote from one who would rather carry the burden of suffering than practise meditation.”
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Bhikkhu Pesala wrote:Samatha meditation is not enough — one should practice vipassanā meditation.
Indeed!
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Re: Overcoming passion

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UrgeSurfer, I also think that perhaps you need to harden up and consider that you are being ....'sensitive'....with your describing the problem.

It's not passion, it's Lust.
It's not self-sex - it's masturbation.
It's not 'inappropriate websites' - it's porn.

Call a spade a damned shovel.
Sometimes, the reality and no-nonsense approach to what we do, can be a better 'cold bucket of water' to our mind, than dressing it up in more flowery terms.

These things, for a lay Buddhist, need not necessarily be hindrances, providing you preceive them for what they are. Distractions to practice, to which one can form an unhealthy attachment.

Lust per se, is not negative, or evil.
Masturbation, per se, is not negative or evil.
Porn, per se, is not negative or evil.

These can be covered by the third precept:
I vow to refrain from indulging in inappropriate sexual behaviour.
The Buddha outlined what that was.

You and your wife are not ordained as a monk and nun.
And sex and Lust are not "sinful".

This Link may help.

http://www.accesstoinsight.org/lib/auth ... el225.html" onclick="window.open(this.href);return false;

And on a final note, scroll down, all the way down, and read the very last line.

And exchange the word 'passion' for 'Lust'.

There, you have all you need to know.

From a very simple-minded member.
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Translation: Just to stir things up seemed a good reward in itself. ;)

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Hi Fede

I don't think Urgesurfer is being particularly sensitive. He is merely using the terminology used in the tradition. Masturbation is known as 'self-sex', and lust is known as 'passion'. I suspect it comes from the english usage of the Burmese, perhaps its the ethnic indian burmese, from the 1950s and has been transmitted to the present day courtesy of Urgesurfer's and my teacher, SN Goenka.
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Thank you.

I understand now, and apologise if I have inadvertently confused matters more.
I merely felt, from my position that actually being more forthright in terminology would both clarify, and give more clarity, to meditative attempts to cut through the illusion of attachment.

I regret adding to the muddle!
but I hope the link is still useful..... :meditate:

Incidentally, all advice and efforts here, to support and counsel, are extremely valuable, educational and commendable, if I may say so.

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Simplify: 17 into 1 WILL go: Mindfulness!

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Hello Fede,

I for one see no reason for your apology. You were merely offering an alternative view. I believe your post was very positive and quite possibly could have been the turning point in the solution to the problem.

Thank you for your compassionate effort.

Namaste

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You are most kind.

And welcome to the forum. :smile:

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"Samsara: The human condition's heartbreaking inability to sustain contentment." Elizabeth Gilbert, 'Eat, Pray, Love'.

Simplify: 17 into 1 WILL go: Mindfulness!

Quieta movere magna merces videbatur. (Sallust, c.86-c.35 BC)
Translation: Just to stir things up seemed a good reward in itself. ;)

I am sooooo happy - How on earth could I be otherwise?! :D


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Masturbation and looking at pornography is practically harmless, you shouldn't feel guilty about doing it. You're just creating a problem and unnecessary stress over something which causes no one any harm. You're a married, fully functioning man: you shouldn't want, and don't need, to overcome lust. If you were a monk, it'd be a different story.
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