"Monks, a lay follower should not engage in five types of business. Which five? Business in weapons, business in human beings, business in meat, business in intoxicants, and business in poison.
"These are the five types of business that a lay follower should not engage in."
ricketybridge wrote:I'm just experiencing far too much equanimity to get into these things.
ricketybridge wrote:And writing isn't just an intellectual engagement; as with an actor, if you're going to write anything half-way decent, your emotions have to be in high gear: you feel with and through your characters. This is, needless to say, not conducive to a peaceful mentality. I'm realizing that it's no accident that so many writers are alcoholics or drug addicts or kill themselves.
ricketybridge wrote:But I feel like continuing to learn and apply myself to the dhamma will inevitably result in my writing grinding down to a halt. Have any of you guys experienced anything like this?
daverupa wrote:In theatre, one can see in Hamlet or Death of a Salesman, et al, a struggle with existential themes that have plagued humanity since consciousness arose. The Buddha also struggled with these existential themes. There is some good material out there, even if it's thin on the ground. You might make more of this sort of work, and point at the Four Noble Truths in various ways through skillful use of writing.
daverupa wrote:The equanimity you're feeling probably isn't really equanimity the way you describe it, rather it's more akin to anhedonia, which is probably rooted elsewhere than in your Dhamma practice. In my own case, a bout with major depressive disorder was the result of thinking anhedonia was somehow a virtue - in other words, playacting that I was farther along on the Path than I was. Equanimity, when developed, will cover everything in the world, and the strife and struggle will lessen and drop away, leaving peace - not the uncomfortable dissonance which you are experiencing. It's worth investigating.
daverupa wrote:...take a step back and look at where you'd be if the writing did grind down to a halt. In my own case, I was married and heading towards a full-ride doctoral scholarship while my then-wife was attending law school. Now, quite some years later and after many trials and tribulations, I'm working a custodial job and yet happier, on account of the Dhamma. I can't imagine caring about tenure any more, where once it was central.
ricketybridge wrote:So what's the remedy for anhedonia? (lol) I imagine it'd be the same as the one for sloth and torpor...?
ricketybridge wrote:But equanimity isn't a permanent condition like enlightenment, is it? Isn't it possible to feel equanimity sometimes, and anxiety (or whatever) later?
ricketybridge wrote:I am so, so attached to my career (non-existent though it may be in more than one way). Sorry if these questions are too personal, but do you ever regret your decision, or does the dhamma pretty much just prevent regret? One thing that prevents me from quitting is the worry that in doing so I'll be wasting whatever amount of talent I may have. Was that a concern for you? Why or why not?
daverupa wrote:You might be inspired to know that there is a whole list in the Suttas of those "disciples foremost in ____", where the blank is filled with many sorts of traits. For example, the Venerable Vangisa has a whole section in the Samyutta Nikaya; he was foremost in spontaneous verse, iirc, so here is an example of someone pursuing the Dhamma according to a talent which doesn't at first blush appear to have much relevance - yet he became one of the arahants. Perhaps your own story will be similar.
chownah wrote:Kim O'Hara,
What do you think of the American TV series "Kung Fu"...you know the one starring David Carridine (don't know how to spell it)...a read of his biography is interesting...especially the ending......perhaps this is a morality tale the OP should read since he's in the same profession..........
Kim O'Hara wrote:But also be aware that all sorts of other groups need good communicators - groups like Avaaz, Kiva, dhamma groups, environmental action groups - so there are lots of opportunities to contribute meaningfully through your writing skills. It's just a bit sad that the more support they deserve, the less money they usually have; you can end up making it your dana (as I do) and having to earn your bread with less worthwhile jobs.
cooran wrote:Hello all,
Brings to mind a previous thread:
Actors go to Hell?
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