Guys here is my story.....!
Recently I have attended for 10-day retreat (S.N.Goenka) BUT Left after couple of days. I have already done couple of 10day courses,I felt very embarrassed. Here is the reason why i left. Before I started the first day, evening before it started I was looking fine. And I never make a strong resolution, but I try to let it go.And from day1 a strong numb kind of feeling on my face started, which is persisted long time and could not focus on breath. While doing anapana , the vipassana instructions(not anapana) given by Goenka(however pleasant sensations, unpleasant observe with a calm and quiet mind) lingering in my mind, and hard to conentrate.Later I had strong back pain for long time. And finally had to leave.I felt real embarrassed. And not quiet sure if I can go back some time later as I was a old student. Will they let me go back?I am planning to practice mindfulness, anapana, and vipassana at home. of course the setting is never matched at center. What you guys suggest me? please help me, and I will be posting here in this forum my dayto day experiences. I will try my best keep up sila,samadhi, panna. I hardly practice at home before i go to this a course. And my mindfulness is weak. I have addictions like coffee, internet etc.
Do you think I will be on track if I practice sila,samadhi,panna, mindfulness and go back to the course after some time??
Please advise me