Prayers for SATTVA

[cooran]

May Louise be safe and protected

May Louise be healthy and strong

May Louise be happy of heart and mind

May Louise live with ease and well-being

May Louise be free of mental and physical pain.

with metta
Chris

[Ytrog]

Metta

[mlswe]

may you be always mindful and may your confidence in the triple gem be strong and supportive whatever the outcome may be, may the outcome be to your benefit

may you be healthy, content, surrounded by reliable support and liberated from dukkha

[Dhammabodhi]

Truckloads of Metta !

[sattva]

Thanks everyone for all the support. I appreciate it so much

I went to the surgeon's yesterday and the news was worse than expected. I was quite bummed out, although i am in a better frame of mind today. He is concerned about my kidneys which are not working perfectly and he says i have a 50% chance of being on dialysis afterwards, at least temporarilly, and possibly permanently. I had just come from my regular doctor who hadn't seemed all that concerned about the kidney numbers, blaming it on one of my meds and the dye i had to take for the cardio cath. We are lowering the med and he seemed to think that my kidneys would come back, but the heart surgeon says that the operation will stress my kidneys further.

He also wants me to get an MRA (it's like an MRI) on my neck. He thinks the arteries there may be clogged as well. I am scheduled for that on Friday. My insurane company is balking about paying.... We have tentalively scheduled the bypass for June 29th. It is farther away than the cardiologist wanted, but it is what it is. If my arteries in my neck are clogged, that will be done right before the heart. It will take at least 3 hours, maybe more.

Yesterday, i questioned whether i should not get it done. I may die during the operation. I may end up on dialysis. I shutter at the thought. If i don't have the operation, i will probably die soon of a heart attack. They say i have had a silent one in the past which has probably caused all these problems i have been having.

This is my conclusion. If i live and end up on dialysis, i will still be able to practice Buddhism even in a limited form. I cannot choose definite death over a limited existence with the possibily of any continued practice.

i will try to let you all know as much as possible the exact time and expected length of the operation.

Thank you again

[mikenz66]

Dear Sattava,

I admire your courage. Be as well as you can be.


Mike

[Reductor]

My heart goes out to you sattva. It cannot be easy to face these problems. Be at peace and recall that all things go their own way.

Karuna!

[cooran]

Dear Louise,

I have a close relative, in his sixties, who had a quadruple bypass in his forties, then, in his fifties, he had a triple bypass, this was followed in later years by four stents, and an angioplasty. He is also diabetic. This man still drives daily, shops, does the washing, volunteers at a charity one day a week, and cares for his elderly mother full-time. He had his initial quadruple bypass over 20 years ago. Keeping in regular touch with your G.P. after the Op is essential and supportive.

With metta
Chris

[bodom]

A Dhamma talk from Upasika Kee Nanayon that everyone should read:

A Good Dose of Dhamma:
For Meditators When They Are Ill
http://www.accesstoinsight.org/lib/thai ... ddose.html

[fig tree]

This is Sattva:

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FIg Tree

[Cittasanto]

may you not loose your home resort!

With Metta
Manapa

[sattva]

Didn't know this thread was here. Thanks everyone for well wishes!!!

[Sanghamitta]

[sattva]

Thanks everyone for all the well-wishes and links!!! Thanks for posting my pic, Fig Tree. i call it Squinting in the Sun lol. My sister took the photo just a few days ago.

Blessings and metta to you all

[Ben]

Back at you, Louise!

[BubbaBuddhist]

Hope all goes well. I had a friend who had a quad BP and afterward he was a new man. In a good way.

M4

[Jhana4]

My father is in his mid 70s. He had a triple bypass and a cleaning out of his carotid artery back in February. His doctor discovered that his arteries were nearly blocked ( no heart attacks, he went in for other issues ). Throughout the process I was impressed by how confident all of the medical staff were. They told us that so many of these operations were done that these operations have become routine and safe. My father is fine now. Good Luck.

[manas]

I have only recently returned to DW, so I have not previously met sattva, but I hope she can find whichever aspect of the three Refuges that calms and centres her mind the most, and recollect that as she goes through this procedure. may she undergo the op with a heart-mind at peace.

[manas]

Hi sattva,
I too admire your courage at this very challenging time. A gentle reminder: maybe find whatever aspect of the Triple Gem most calms and centres your mind and heart, and decide on it now, so that when the time for 'going in' to the procedure arrives, you are already decided on it, and automatically know what to do.

I can remember when I was in hospital, with internal bleeding (spleen had a rupture). Breathing became painful, and reduced down to what felt like a few centimeters each way (I had a fractured rib). I grounded my mind in that - the breath that I still had - and kept sending love into my body, visualizing it as light. So for me in that moment, my kammaṭṭhāna from my ordinary daily practice, became my 'refuge' that got me through that experience with a relatively calm mind. (I got to keep my spleen, btw - it eventually healed.)

But one could choose any aspect of the three Refuges, I suppose...recollection of the Buddha, of an aspect of the Dhamma that inspires one, or the Sangha (a teacher one has a connection with?), etc. This is just a suggestion of mine based on personal experience, I'm not a professional of any kind! But I offer it as something that helped me thorugh a challenging time, and might be helpful to you.

In the end, your faith and practice reside in your heart and mind already, and will arise at the right time, I intuit. May you be at peace, sattva! Whatever happens, may the goodness of your faith and practice guide and protect you. I also will await to know the exact time of the op. and you will be in my heart-and-mind especially at that time.

[retrofuturist]