I was like you ... I tasted and tested many forms of Buddhism and eventually, after some years, settled back on Theravada realising that it was the real deal - that it was my hearts' home. I still have some connections to Dzogchen (Chogyal Namkhai Norbu), but have never taken any vows within that School. I occasionally attend Teachings in other schools by well-known Teachers (e.g. when the Dalai Lama comes to Australia).
You probably already read the AccessToInsight
- especially their Index
: http://www.accesstoinsight.org/index-subject.html BuddhaSasana
is a very good website for articles about all facets of Theravada. (I’m certain if you post on Mahayana websites you will come across the term Hinayana as a way of referring to Theravada – which is incorrect.http://www.buddhanet.net/budsas/ebud/ebidx.htm Mahayana and Theravada
Now, what is the difference between Mahayana and Theravada?
I have studied Mahayana for many years and the more I study it, the more I find there is hardly any difference between Theravada and Mahayana with regard to the fundamental teachings.
- Both accept Sakyamuni Buddha as the Teacher.
- The Four Noble Truths are exactly the same in both schools.
- The Eightfold Path is exactly the same in both schools.
- The Paticca-samuppada or the Dependent Origination is the same in both schools.
- Both rejected the idea of a supreme being who created and governed this world.
- Both accept Anicca, Dukkha, Anatta and Sila, Samadhi, Panna without any difference.
These are the most important teachings of the Buddha and they are all accepted by both schools without questionhttp://www.buddhanet.net/budsas/ebud/ebdha125.htm
Take your time, keep investigating - try to find a Theravadin Teacher for meditation and the Dhamma - even if it is for a 10 day Retreat each year.