Thanks my dear friends for the loving moral support and advices. Yes I totally agree that the only difference between a laity and monk is that the former does not don a robe and has slightly lesser time to practise if they have a job. The Dhamma is for the benefit of everyone and there are monks who are not as skilled as the laity (a good example is me because I'm relatively a new to Buddhism).
I've already obtained permission from my teacher to go visit whichever monastery I wish to and also invited by 2 forest monks to hike the mountains in Northern Thailand after vassa. My teacher is a very good teacher because he knows how to provoke me with words which will make me contemplate the dependent origination and khandas. So in case some of you may be mistaken, I do have a good teacher, just not a conducive monastery to practise. I will see how things go after I do a retreat at Suan Mokh and hopefully I'll meet some english-speaking monks whom I have karmic connections with.
On an unnecessary note, since young, when I have not heard of the Buddha's Teachings before, I've always told myself and my mum that life is meaningless, we study hard just to obtain certificate which entitles us a good job. Then we work extremely hard to provide for our family, and, eventually we retire and wait for death. I was born with a silver spoon but never felt happy despite all the luxury ihad. But now, I love this simplicity, especially after spending ten days in a cemetery.
May all beings rejoice and I do have a lot to learn from humble dhammafarers like you guys.
With deepest metta
"When an evil-man, seeing you practise goodness, comes and maticiously insults you, you should patiently endure it and not feel angry with him, for the evil-man is insulting himself by trying to insult you" - The Buddha