I can't help but think it's interesting how things pan out. In a parallel universe, I could have just arrived at Santi...
("who knows what the future holds", indeed)
All the best to Ajahn Sujato and may he attain the goal he strives for.
If you have asked me of the origination of unease, then I shall explain it to you in accordance with my understanding: Whatever various forms of unease there are in the world, They originate founded in encumbering accumulation. (Pārāyanavagga)
'We should not congratulate someone on the success of their misdeeds, but on the contrary should endeavour to advise him or her to lead a more skilful and wholesome life. If such advice is ignored then we can only give up and let go' - Phra Panyapatipo
This offering maybe right, or wrong, but it is one, the other, both, or neither! With Metta Upāsaka Cittasanto Blog-Some Suttas Translated. "Others will misconstrue reality due to their personal perspectives, doggedly holding onto and not easily discarding them; We shall not misconstrue reality due to our own personal perspectives, nor doggedly holding onto them, but will discard them easily. This effacement shall be done."
retrofuturist wrote:In a parallel universe, I could have just arrived at Santi...
In that universe, I'd have been a six-month-old anagarika at Santi 'round about this time.
The comment by Piya Tan was interesting.
I only met Bhante Sujato one night, and he spoke a little about his then-recent road trip in the States as well as the general bhikkhuni situation, among other things.
"There is, headman, dhammasamādhi. If you were to obtain cittasamādhi in that, you might abandon this state of perplexity. And what, headman, is dhammasamādhi?
[kammapatha & brahmavihara, & a method of arousing gladness]"- SN 42.13 - Pāṭaliya
"Others will misapprehend according to their individual views, hold on to them tenaciously and not easily discard them; we shall not misapprehend according to individual views nor hold on to them tenaciously, but shall discard them with ease — thus effacement can be done."- MN 8 - Sallekha Sutta
I think many 'successful' people go through such a time. At one point you wonder if it was / is worth it. The stress, the headaches, etc. that come with success can be burdensome and you remember the easier times when there was less responsibility. I can empathize with Bhante. And by success, it doesn't have to be financial, it can be having some position of power or leadership, such as being an abbot, running a center, etc. You can easily fall into an indifference (sort of a WTF moment), but not saying he has done that. It can also be or progress to upekkhā where you can take on fewer responsibilities with renewed zeal / better focus / concentration.
There was an article in Tricycle or some other Buddhist publication where one of the directors of a retreat center said that he went there to find the bliss of working and meditating at a retreat center. He soon found himself in a similar 'rat-race' of lay life dealing with the responsibilities of running the place and had little time for his own practice.