thanks so much for all the advice! i entered jhana in burmese posture so i can forget lotus! whoo! healthy knees here i come!
oddly enough i had trouble sitting in a chair. it's purely mental though, my body and mind are just so used too lotus that they don't want to be in meditation mode when sitting in a chair. i could have just kept at it and i'm sure it would have happened, but burmese posture is so close too lotus that it worked beautifully!
my left foot/leg still fell asleep but since there was zero wrenching or unnatural twisting of my knee, i'm sure this is nothing problematic, and i could still move it, it was just a normal leg asleep kind of feeling.
The time would not pass. Somebody was playing with the clocks, and not only the electronic clocks but the wind-up kind too. The second hand on my watch would twitch once, and a year would pass, and then it would twitch again.
There was nothing I could do about it. As an Earthling I had to believe whatever clocks said -and calendars.”
― Kurt Vonnegut, Slaughterhouse-Five