Hello everyone, long time reader, first time poster...
I recently came to a sort of insight that has basically flipped my entire practice over onto itself. Its been quite stressful.
About a week ago I was doing my usual concentration practice, just simple awareness of my breathing, nothing else. When I was done I got up and walked around and sort of tapped into something. I had this profound insight into Anatta in a very practical way. It was almost as if I found this place that was a dwelling independent of the Khandhas that could observe the aggregates perfectly and clearly unhindered. I had sort of found my no-self and found great wisdom and compassion within this dwelling.
The problem with this is that my breath (which has always been sort of my "center" or my anchor to the present moment and all impressions) had been rendered useless as I could now simply observe everything without the breath being any differing or significant object. Everything I thought I knew about meditation has been for the most part torn apart.
For the last week I've been reading a lot and torn between 2 methods. My original method which is centered around the breath and allows sort of indirect awareness to come on its own accord (which I feel inclined to continue with for continuity sake) and this new method of basically immediate full present time awareness.
The even freakier part which almost drove me crazy is that yesterday I was doing a seated meditation and this second method led me to the EXACT same jhana that I had been reaching before with my strictly concentration practice...
So I guess my question is should I keep concentrating and why? recently when I've been trying to simply just follow my breath I've been getting really frustrated, like I'm missing out and should just give in to my new method. But I feel like if I give in on my previous practice I will be doing myself a number of disservices (such as continuity, leaving my longtime practice handed down to be from a teacher, and my fear that eventually without a sort of directed anchor I will lose my present time awareness).
Another question is about what folks do in this context with daily life-non-seated mindfulness, before I was following my breath, or coming back to my breath, throughout the day but I have found my new method to be more beneficial in this field as well.
Any thoughts are truly appreciated.