Hey,
I'm from France and since a few months I'm going to this weekly Triratna Buddhist Community. Well I can't go every week but I go whenever I can.
I became intrested in Buddhism, when I started to learn about the practice of mindfullness and the fact that thoughts and emotions are nothing more than just thoughts and emotions. (simply put)
Realising that I don't have to run from my own fears or other uncomfortable feelings and that I can face them without any judgement, has been a real eye-opener.
I'm 21 now and recently I really started to realise how much I run away from myself.On days I don't have school or work, I get up, put some music on, sit behind the computer. I realise I don't have anything to do on the computer. Put the computer away, after a while start to feel uncomfortable, put some music on. After a while I put the computer back on and here we go again.
I'm not into gaming or other computer stuff, I like to learn so I read a lot on the computer. But in 6 or 12 months I'm moving out from my parents house and I'm preparing myself to a life without any computer, tv or other mind numbing stuff. I'm getting better at it, it used to be so hard for me but now I'm able to meditate for 20-30min in one session. And everyday I give myself this "1 hour no distraction-time" where I just meditate and do some form of yoga. Some days I do one 1-hour session and some days 2 or more. My goal is to increase it slowly.
At the Triratna Buddhist Community. I learned 3 different forms of meditation: The Bodyscan, Awareness of the Breathing and loving-kindness meditation. At home I usually do the first 2. I try to keep it as simple as possible.
Still, I have some question for you guys. The Triratna Buddhist Community I attend is in my humble opinion a good one, everyone seems nice and the teacher seems like a good person and down to earth. Also he keeps everything really simple which is good for me now.
The course I attend is an introduction course and we basically learn about one of the 3 meditation forms every week. It's free, but we can give dana if we want. Which is a sign of good intentions for me. After a few sessions we can attend the other Sangha, which is for the more experienced ones and is more Buddhism than the course I attend now. Now it's more about Mindfullness which is only a part of Buddhism.
So being intrested in also joining the other Sanga I started to read about the Triratna Buddhist Community yesterday and seems like it doesn't really have a good reputation especially his founder. It has made me a bit suspicious honestly. Can you guys give me some insight about this?
Metta
