I've been prescribed a higher dose on my anti depressants and am now starting to feel much better. I almost feel like a human being again, and very importantly I now have more of a drive to meditate. Hopefully after getting into a good routine of meditation and Buddhist practice, THEN I may think about come down on my meds again.
"The original heart/mind shines like pure, clear water with the sweetest taste. But if the heart is pure, is our practice over? No, we must not cling even to this purity. We must go beyond all duality, all concepts, all bad, all good, all pure, all impure. We must go beyond self and nonself, beyond birth and death. When we see with the eye of wisdom, we know that the true Buddha is timeless, unborn, unrelated to any body, any history, any image. Buddha is the ground of all being, the realization of the truth of the unmoving mind.” Ajahn Chah