Hi Retro and Manas, and thanks for your kind posts.
Manas, you raise a good point, and it's true, at least as far as I'm aware, that in the Thai Sangha one can ordain and disrobe numerous times. I have a good friend who has ordained and then disrobed for important reasons, and he intends to reordain later in life when he is clear of other responsibilities. He's a good person, and was (and will be)a good Bhikku, to be sure.
I agree that there can be value in ordaining, and making a good faith effort to stay in robes. If disrobing is needed, then, yes, one can disrobe with no dishonor at all, and then seek to reordain, perhaps, at a later time.
I guess I offered my comments as I spent a brief time as a samanera in Thailand, and lived the life of a monastic novice, and lived with and trained with the Bhikkhus. My respect for these men cannot be measured. My time as a samanera was not easy ( it was also life changing, wonderful, and deeply important to me); early rising for chanting, no eating after noon, having to be driven anywhere by a lay male one needed to go, not to mention sleeping on a bed (a hard wood table with no mattress or cushion or pillow) with lizards, mosquitos, and the occasional scorpion in the room....
If I could do it again tomorrow, I'd do it again tomorrow. I just suggest that maybe the lay or samanera path is a good one, to "test the waters" and then yes, take the plunge and do as so many others from the West have done with Ajahn Chah and others....go forth, live the life, and see where the path takes you.