It is my problem, eveyone can help, but only me can solve it.
No, whynotme. Its your possibility, you can help out your self and solve it simply by your self.
It reminds me on Ajhan Chahs saying: "The only worthy book to read is the heart" So there are times we need to throw away the books and all other intelectual things and simply prove it for our selfs without support of others.
Its a little like trational forest monks. After a while of formal teachings, they are used to be send into to the forset (field, world...). No way out and just a minimum to get confused to be able to see it by one self.
Literary studies are somehow only the dessert after the nurishing meal. We need to be careful that our belly is not overfilled with the dessert or we are so attached to is pleasure (what come along wich intelectuall playing and study) that we even refuse what is actually staple food. How every keep the meal balanced, even the dessert is fine it would make you fat and immovable sooner or later.
How can one look, observe his mind when it is full of thought and busy with intelectuall knowledge? No way.