I'm having quite the struggle with my own mind lately, with a situation at work.
I'd really welcome your input, from a Buddhist belief stand point.
To cut a long long story short, for the last few months I have been covering a more senior role at work as well as doing my own job. So I have been doing two jobs.
I had in the past been unfairly treated by this manager who had discounted me from being promoted into the job in the first place. However when asked to help I felt she'd seen her error, so practiced some patience and forgiveness and went to her aid when she really, really needed me.
I was happy to help for an agreed set of time, it has saved my company considerable money and time and it has saved other colleagues some stress.
It has of course been hard work for me. I have coped ok though, I just do my best each day with a smile on my face. I was promised that they may give me a bonus at the beginning of this process too, so some recognition.
I have not been given the bonus. they have asked me to continue this cover until January though, but they expect this for nothing and have no promise of any knd of extra pay for me or promotion e.t.c.
I am not driven by money, but this upsets me.
I am upset that I have been given no respect, that my efforts aren't reciprocated. We are a team. My company is very, very profitable and paying a bonus or just offering some simple flowers to me is no problem.
I calmly let them know that it was not acceptable team work - for me to do as we agreed, but for them not to reciprocate as agreed too.
They in turn offered me a very low payment which was still not a firm promise and I felt was begrudgingly offered.
I have done an excellent job, without complaint until now.
My other colleagues are also now deeply upset at my treatment. This touches me, I feel very loved by them!
They advise me to stop doing this secondment, as it is optional, because management are not grateful.
I agree on a selfish level. But I feel as though I'm somehow being 'big headed', like I should show more Patience and less ego.
On the other hand, I feel that my kindness and understanding should not be abused. That I should remove myself from the negative situation and concetrate on fulfilling my contracted job.
I could do with some impartial advice on how to handle this.
I welcome your input very much. Thank you for reading.