I wrote about this issue many months ago, but I wanted to share it on the forum again to see if there are any new and interesting opinions on the matter.
I have been meditating for a year now (vipassana) and have been having an issue in regards to thinking, or utilizing my intelligence. Over the course of the year, I have realized that I can only really think clearly when I apply pressure to my head, induce stress if you will, which is the catalyst for my brain to think. This stress/anxiety facilitates my thinking power tremendously - I can concentrate, solve problems, and be very creative. The problem is, I understand that applying this pressure to my head is not healthy, and could be detrimental in many ways. I don't know what to do - I have tried to think in a calm, relaxed manner, but I have come to realize that I become an inane, vapid shell when I am relaxed and at ease - yes, I am happy, but when I realize that I cannot think as vividly as before, it makes me sad - it's a vicious cycle. People have told me that stress impedes thinking, but for me it is the opposite. It's like an adrenaline rush to my brain that benefits my thinking greatly, much to my displeasure. Anyone have any ideas?