Dear Dhammawheel brothers and sisters,
My name is Lin Rongxiang from Singapore, a male thirty one years of age, and I began my spiritual interests sometime back in 2003 when I was in university. My supervisor at a local telco that I worked for lent me a theravadin book by Ajahn Brahm called Opening the Doors of Your Heart -- I became delighted and proceeded to procure a personal copy from a local bookstore, and that was when I began listening to his dharma talks, and practising a variety of meditation techniques.
It was a bit ironic when despite all my interests in the Theravadin lineage, as well as Thai Forest monks, the Mahayana which is strongly rooted in Asian beliefs came first, and I ended up taking Triple Gem refuge this year with a Tibetan lineage with the dharma name Jayan Tashi. Between 2003 to 2012 which is almost a decade, I have been following a variety of Buddhist organisations and teachers, and found spiritual endeavour boring actually by now.
You see at the back of my mind, there are still a variety of yesteryear undertakings, and perhaps vows even, that are sitting on the mental shelves collecting dust, and it gets confusing at a point when I decided to just drop by Dhamma Wheel for a chat and keep in touch.
What will make me smile? I find myself trapped in an island economy and society that works perfectly running around in circles ~ one moment the government and parents need me to get a job, next moment procreation matters were at the tip of my fingers ~ while my original motivations back in 2003 when I began practising and learning about Buddhism was the youthful aspiration that was full of ideals and romances the young boy still flows within me as I settle down for some moments of insight yet the highest goals like jhanas, arahantships, nibbana or buddhahood mean almost the same thing as salaries, graduates, marriage and parenthood to me -- and I have totally no clue what those boddhisattvas and employers are teaching me (maybe not entirely clueless, still..
Before I found dhammawheel I originally wanted to setup a dharmacrossing website that replaces the original e-sangha and I guess what I have now in front of me is what I need and what I need is what I have too.. I also wanted to setup a greencrossing website that encourages environmental consciousness especially in the area of Infocomm technology and there and then I found Bodhilinux (link
) and I guess thank you for fulfilling my aspirations in part
It isn't what you do or do not do that is the problem, it is what I do and do not do that is *my* problem
Lin Rongxiang (Jayan Tashi)