I don't understand why you are so interested in Zen masters.
If Zen is not for you, then so be it.
The alleged behaviour of the long dead is of what practical value?
May I suggest you concentrate on doing what needs doing.
Develop sila! develop samadhi! develop panna!
“No lists of things to be done. The day providential to itself. The hour. There is no later. This is later. All things of grace and beauty such that one holds them to one's heart have a common provenance in pain. Their birth in grief and ashes.”
- Cormac McCarthy, The Road
Learn this from the waters:
in mountain clefts and chasms,
loud gush the streamlets,
but great rivers flow silently.
- Sutta Nipata 3.725
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