Hi DigityDigity wrote:Today my meditation was very muddled, but at least this time I didn't get upset about it afterwards. However, I also don't want to become complacent in my meditation and just turn it into a session of zoning out for a while. I think you need to strike a balance between not striving too much but at the same time not getting complacent...similar to the lute string analogy the Buddha used. Today things felt a bit too lax, which isn't good.
your post reminded me of something. That, of course we want to bring forth a non-muddled mind as much as possible, but when it is muddled - and trust me I've been there heaps of times - there's an interesting thing going on - the fact that you can perceive that it's actually 'muddled'! There is still something in the mind that has enough mindfulness to know how un-mindful it is, if you get my meaning. Sometimes - not all the time, but sometimes - when I try to kind of seek out and locate that knowing, look at it as it were, by focussing on the knowing, more of the knowing 'takes over' as it were, and some of the muddle-headedness is dispelled. Anyway, I experiment like this a bit, and sometimes I learn something from it.
Up, down, happy, sad, clear, muddled...states of mind are really impermanent, they change way faster than our bodies, actually...like cloud-shadows moving across a landscape...
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