I'm dipping my toes back into the stream for similar reasons. My alcohol consumption is getting out of hand. I drink nearly everyday, and drink heavily on the weekends. I'm certainly addicted, as I feel a physical craving to drink, especially when distressed in some manner. Aside from being ashamed that I feel a need for a substance, I'm also concerned about my health. With as much as I drink, and for as long as I've been at it, health is a valid concern.
I was talking to a guy at work the other night near the end of the shift. I said "well, almost beer:30!", he replied, "yeah, wish I could have one, but I've had to quit since the seizures started". He went on to explain that due the amounts he use to drink, and a pre-existing condition, he started having seizures. He later revealed that his brother had died at 35 due to liver damage caused by heavy consumption. This little exchange really shook something lose in me, and made me realize that I was being reckless, even when knowing that I was being reckless. I'm grateful for this experience, it's given me motivation to do something about it. I believe the thing to do about it, is get back into practice, and get support from others.
I'm off on the right foot. I bypassed the gas station this morning on my way home from work, where I'd normally stop to pick up a six pack. It wasn't as much of a battle as I feared it would be, though when I got home, it was a bit more difficult because my routine is to crack one open and hop online... and drink for several hours... then stay up longer then I should... then not get as much sleep as I should, waking up feeling like crap... not having any energy for exercise or hobbies... rinse/repeat. It really is a bad way of living.