photonist wrote:my current/lately mood is like "i am not aware,awake enough to enjoy but i am not ignorant of it enough to be ignoramusly euphoric,happy. It's like you want to be a writer but then you realize you grew up to be able to see beyond words, they are just labels, witty word plays or aphorisms prove nothing more importantly will not help you feel nothing better than what you already have inside
I was in Istanbul last July and really enjoyed your amazing city. I think there used to be a Buddhist group that met for meditation, maybe it is still functioning?
It can be very valuable to find other people who have similar interests and you are lucky to live in a country where you can explore these interests freely without fear of persecution. I met a Turkish lady there who is Buddhist and who maintains correspondence with a Buddhist teacher in the US for guidance. Isn't it amazing that such things are possible these days?
Buddhist path is first and foremost a practical path, it is a practice more than the doctrine, I would say. This practice involves doing the right thing (being kind and honest, etc), just like Islam, contemplation of the teachings and meditation. But everybody comes at it from a different direction depending on their personality and tendencies.
Good luck with it!!!