I have a severe moral hangover. I know what i did is wrong, but i just could not help myself. I am just so mad at myself. What can I do to make things better? I was just so angry, so so angry the things flew out of my control. I am a very private person, and I do not discuss my personal life with anyone. One of my family members told my estranged aunt what I am studying and I just went mad. We do not get along with this autn, basically with all my fathers sisters and brothers and I just hate the idea they know what I am about to do with my life (studying). And when I heard my father explaining her what I am doing I just got so angry I called my mother who escorted (with shouting) my aunt out of our house. My aunt lives in a nother state and comes every few years. But I am still appaled by the idea she's going to tell everyone of my estranged family members (aunts, cousins, uncles - i mean i wish them all the best, but I do not regard them as my family members) what's going on in my life. I had a row with my father, telling him some pretty nasty things. Well I told him he is stupid. I do not remember the last time I was so angry, furious. I was well aware that my words were bad and completely inappropriate but I just could not help myself. I am still angry when writting this. This happened an hour ago.