I'm Jennifer. Of course as you can see from my very UNbuddhist screen name, I haven't chosen a Dhamma name yet.
I'm new at this. I've always thought about becoming a Buddhist. Partially because I felt it was a great religion and there was a lot to learn there. And partially because it sounds cool to tell people "I'm a Buddhist." LoL! Just being honest.
Since I was a teen I've been searching for a religion that fit me. I was raised Christian, baptist to be exact. My mom wasn't strict with me. She let me experiment. She's even changed it up a few times in her life. So I'm fortunate to have such an understanding mother. She didn't even worry when I tried Wicca. She completely let me follow my own path.
I won't bore you with all my experiments, but ultimately, I always returned to these main two- Wicca and Buddhism. There was something that pulled me to these two. Wicca is a very earth based religion. A very truth based religion. There's a lot of chanting and meditating. Drawing on your own mind and body and energy in harmony with the earth. I've always liked this.
But in the end, I came back to Buddhism. And this time I really researched it. I found out I knew nothing. LoL! That my idea of Buddhism was complete rubbish. Well, I had the gist of it. Meditate, but I didn't really know how. Love, but I don't know how to do it unconditionally all the time. Well actually I DO, but there's always this nagging resentment. I'm getting better at it, but I have a ways to go. And peace. But I get mad too often.
I began reading the works of Ajahn Summedo. Later I listened to some of his talks. What he said made sense. I also read an entire course of Modern Buddhism books. Everything resonated with me. It was perfect. The perfect way to live.
Now the hard part. Putting it into practice. And PRACTICING it! But I'm up for it.
Well that's all there is to really tell here. Hopefully you'll all get to know more about me through many conversations.