manas wrote:Hi Tachibana
I take back my sarcastic replies if they caused any harm.
But I do stand behind the Ajahn Anan quote I posted: it is so easy to mistake ourselves having attained something. And that can be very hurtful for our future practice. Tachibana how you describe your insights sounds like it moved you, but doesn't sound to me to be paths/fruits, so please reconsider. An emotional episode and a thought about nibbana doesn't make one sotapanna and a lessening of sense desire and hate doesn't make one once-returner. If that were so, almost all practicing Buddhists would be, because lessening of those things happens naturally, already before any major insight.
For your own benefit, don't fix yourself into things like these. It can only do harm.
Well if you find another one that has become asexual after a full vipassanaa day may be I'll reconsider.
All jokes aside, I already thought earlier that I attained enlightenment, however this thought disappeared when I understood that I was only in some jhaana state.
I can stay in jhaana without wishing it for 5 hours.
But there have been several days since I pretend having reached the Sakadaagaami's stage.
Also I don't remember having truly practiced jhaana for about 1 year and half.
I don't feel equanimity since I can feel pain and pleasure.
I don't feel rapture since I didn't reach the 1rst jhaana early.
I don't feel sukha since I'm actually not producing anything special.
Well as the Buddha said, you can not understand what is being an Ariyaa if you are not an Ariyaa.