Thank you all very much for the love and support throughout this difficult time.
I do not want to take over the forums nor be center of attention but I really do wish to thank you all for not giving up on me. It brings tears to my eyes, I really did felt no hope but with your kind words and support, I know now I am never alone.
As mentioned in my new introduction, I have had many disappointments, I lost my home, I lost someone very dear to me and living in a rough town surrounded by anger, hatred, lust and greed, it brings negative energy around me and therefore I suffer.
I'm still practicing the 5 precepts and trying to remember the four noble truths. As my username reads, I am "Still Searching".