palm wrote:Hi Forum,
This is my first post here, please help.
I'm Thai so i have access to some material from buddhadasa indapanno's which are unfortunately not translated into other languages yet. Anyway, Buddhadasa stressed so much on non-self. He went so far as to state that it's ultimately the main goal of us practitioners.
Yesterday on my session, i experience the 'self' of mine very vividly. This experience of self is so solid and real almost as if i can touch it. I felt that i am, having body, having my family, my wife, my 2 daughters, my home, etc... i mean Come on! Non-self? Why is the self so real?
This is my question. What is this not-self that Buddhism speak off. Is it
1.) a conceptual understanding that this life is finite, is ever changing, so it is not worth clinging to?
2.) an experience where you can actually see 'self' dissolving, disintegrating before your eyes?
3.) non of the above.
Than you for reading my questions.
Hi Palm ,
To my knowledge , the experience of deep anicca ( change ) , gives rise to the experience to dukkha ( sorrow) , which then gives rise to annata , which then again reinforces anicca . Inter-dependence........
Well if you have experienced solidity in one of your sessions , so be it . It is very normal for one to keep " feeling this feeling " again and again. Its very patiently that we have to deal with ourselves , in order to go deeper and deeper , and feel and experience the arising and vanishing away of all the six senses. This may happen the next moment or may take incalculable aeons together . But then time is very relative , and we should not be burdened with the saddle of time. As the saying goes " Kalam Agmaya" time has no meaning , for one who walks on the path of knowledge......