New to Buddhism. About 5 weeks new.
I've got a Theravada monastery that I go to about twenty minutes away. So that's pretty convenient.
I don't really have much to say about myself since I have some trouble identifying who I really am. Much fluctuation exists in my choices and personality.
Not really sure what to do with my life and what direction it's heading in.
I guess I can't really have a direction until I set one.
But the love of my life lives with her ex-fiancé and has two kids with him.
Neither of us have the money to get an apartment.
Besides, it's probably better if I remain living with my parents because I'm broke and I have college dues from dropping out and the rent is cheap.
But I don't really care about money. In fact, I don't really care about much of anything.
I'm just a paper bag being dragged by the wind.
With all the nihilism, I'm considering doing some research on Mahayana because they have some nihilistic schools that interest me.
But I'm not sure if the Mahayana are right in pondering the subject, because the Buddha told us not to.
But he also said that we can question him and argue with his principles, so I guess you can really do whatever you want within reason. But I'm not a scholar, so disregard my foolishness if you wish.
I joined Buddhism, not only because it makes sense, both ethically and spiritually, but because I'm hoping it will end up with me having a more positive attitude.
You see, I'm bipolar. And I recently lost a job because I threatened to kill myself because of something my boss said to me. So yeah I'm pretty much a mess and I'm hoping that Buddhism will benefit me in many ways.
Yeah, so I write poetry.
I'm a man of little words most of the time unless I'm in a really small group of people; introvert, they call 'em.
But when I write poetry, I usually have plenty to say.
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You don't have to have a Tumblr account to view my poetry, just click on the link.
I would appreciate some follows, though, if you do have an account.
Thanks, guys. I'm looking forward to getting to know all of you.
"There are only two mistakes one can make along the road to truth; not going all the way, and not starting."